Finding my Soul where the Blacktop ends… Father’s Day 2013

Over the past 7 months as we have relocated to East Texas and really over the past year and a half as my wife and boys have been in Texas caring for my mother I’ve had quite a bit of time to think back over all my years growing up without a father in my life.

As I watch how much my boys have grown these past several months, the sacrifices they have made for us to care for my mother in her later years, how much they are giving of themselves to serve others, my heart wants more than ever to provide the very best quality of life for them, invest in their spiritual growth, be a healthy father and be a great husband for my wife.  Therefore, I work 12-15 hours days on a pipeline until the door opens for me to bring value to a company where the gifts God has given me can help lead an organization into the future.

A sad 13 yr old boy

A sad 13 yr old boy

As you think about your own journey as a man and/or father this Father’s Day weekend.  I pray you will find hope in my story.  My father left in 1983 and divorced my mom in 1985 after some 30 years of marriage.  As I mentioned in other articles I’ve only seen him 4 or 5 times in the past 30 years and none in the last 10 years. My mother raised us kids as a single parent, and did a FINE job I might add.  So, for all the single mothers out there reading this post.  Thank you for stepping up when your husbands stepped out.


During the most crucial years in a young boys life and into manhood, a father figure was missing in my life.  Most of the hunting and fishing I did in my teenage and young adult years happened to be with my brother, cousins, guys from the golf course where my mother worked, guys from church, clients in the timber and oil/gas industry where I’ve worked, and friends.  All the hunting and fishing trips that a young boy dreams of as a teenage, young man, and young father, hoping to share his children with his dad on hunting expeditions, never occurred.  I found myself looking to be the warrior man that God had created me to be; however, I lacked the one thing I needed most… a father / dad to walk with me, talk with me, show me how to live as a man.  I looked for that role model in a lot of guys… and over time pieced together the best part of a lot of different men who have helped me become the man I am today.  Some of those men I’ve never met, but watched them from a distance.  Some good… some, not so good.

It is for that reason God has called me to, “reclaiming the masculine hearts of men”. No boy should be without his father / dad in the most crucial time of developing the man God uses.  I don’t want to look back one day and miss the best that life has to offer in doing life with my wife and boys.  There is NOTHING so important that it should take time away from being with Stephanie and the boys in the outdoors… NOTHING.  I’ve asked God for years for the opportunity to be apart of something huge for him.  I wake up daily with that same request.

an arrogant 21 yr old youn man

an arrogant 21 yr old youn man

My heart has been mended over the past 30 years.  I am grateful for my healthy relationship with God, my wife, and my boys.  Part of the journey for me is taking hunting and fishing trips with my boys I never had with my father.  And there will be hunts for me to take my sons and my grandsons on together… multiple generations walking side by side into the great outdoors.

My heart is for those of you this Father’s Day weekend without a father and/or struggling to be a good father. I pray for health and balance in your life.  The reason for Man Up Outdoors is to invest in you… because whether or not you saw this coming, you need a band of brothers to walk in this journey we call manhood.  You can do it … We can help!

I want to leave a different legacy for my boys than the one left for me.  And I need your help.

The following scripture is one I read often.  I hope you’ll find it helpful…



“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me,

Because the Lord has anointed me

To bring good news to the afflicted;

He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,

To proclaim liberty to captives

And freedom to prisoners…” (Isaiah 61:1)

a young 29 year old husband

a young 29 year old husband


Thousands of little boys and girls, just like my sons, CalebJosiahLevi, and Silas are watching our every move.  As we go through life whether it be working, coaching little league teams, or recording our outdoor shows, please consider the thousands if not tens of thousands of next generation hunters and fishermen who are following our lead.


Throughout this post are several pictures of me over the past 30 years.  As you look into my eyes you’ll notice a sad 13 year old boy, a some what arrogant 21 year old young man, a 29 year old new husband, and now a 42 year old dad wanting to leave a legacy of Modern Day Warriors.



42 year old father with a great wife and four wonderful young men…

Look into my eyes and see what unfolds for you.

Happy Father’s Day and God Bless !

Kerry Mackey

Man Up Outdoors


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